need…. to…. focus……

I’m putting this out there because I’m sure I’m not the only one who does this.

I proctastinate. I’m not lazy I just don’t always do what I know is the urgent thing to do. Throughout highschool and university my room would be very messy without bothering me until suddenly it was time to study and I’d just have to clean it. I’d say it’s because I wanted a neat and tidy study environment, which was true.  I did study better once I had cleaned my room but sometimes when time was limited and I should have pushed through and studied anyway I really struggled to do so. I used to call it “justifiable procrastination”.

We all do it to a certain extent but I am terrible at it. Allow me to set the scene for you.

I have a friend coming over in a matter of minutes and I have a rare window of opportunity to clean while William sleeps and Alexis watches Wiggles. The kitchen bench is trashed with paperwork and empty water bottles and a few half unpacked bags from various outings. The kitchen table is covered in wheetbix. The floor needs vacuuming. I haven’t checked the visitors toilet but it most likely needs cleaning. There is much to do. What am I going to cook for dinner? Focus. I go to put the cereal back in the pantry. 

Suddenly I am overcome by an irrepressible urge to examine the contents of my pantry and remove out of date items and see what needs cooking soon. My pantry is huge and well stocked. I’m trying to limit waste. It’s a job I do need to do. It doesn’t really need to be done NOW though does it?

Sure the bins go out tomorrow morning and it’d be best to do it before then. I still have this afternoon though. I eventually realise this and tear myself away. I’m unsatisfied and it is difficult to not continue. I write it on the mental to-do-list and think to myself how I should put a to-do-list on paper.

I step into the bedroom for a minute to clean my teeth and notice all the laundry that needs to be put away. I also need to take the dirty clothes to the wash. I need to get yesterday’s playgroup morning tea leftovers out of the car too. Hmmm. Gross. At least there is nothing perishable in there this time.

Focus. I need to focus. I need somewhere clean for my friend to sit and something clean for her to lay her baby on to play. That is most important for now.

Actually no now I need to go to the bathroom. And I should change my shirt because it has baby spew on it. Alexis’ dvd is skipping. Focus. This would make a good blog post.

Is there any wonder I never get anything done?

Please tell me there’s a cure for this? I suspect it has something to do with sleep. Hmm is there a magic pill or something?